Well, it’s been quite a year! A lot of big changes have happened in my life (getting married, going back to school full time, quitting my coffee shop gig, moving downtown, visiting Boston and Denmark…) I think it’s fun to look back on the year and see what you’ve accomplished and what you were up to a year ago. Every year of my adult life has been drastically different from the others. I’m consistently inconsistent. I can always look back and say, “If you had asked me a year ago where I would be today, I never would have imagined this.” I think the biggest surprise was not being able to find a job in my field. I was certainly one of the victims of a failing economy. But, I was also partially to blame. I had a good job in Salt Lake, but quit so my husband and I could move back to the Midwest. My husband found a really good job very quickly and I was sure I’d be able to find something. As the months passed, my confidence collapsed, my anxiety shot up, and I started to feel totally worthless. And it didn’t help that others were constantly asking me if I had found a job yet. It’s amazing how much we rely on jobs to define us.
One of the few things that was consistent in my basket case situation was this blog. It was something that was completely unique to me and made me feel somewhat important. I had dedicated readers who looked forward to reading what I wrote! So, I have you to thank for keeping me hopeful. For a while, I was determined to make my blog my job. Unfortunately, my business skills are pretty nonexistent and I was never able to make much money. And for some reason, Google AdSense rejected me. Twice! Perhaps vegan blogs are not part of their acceptable repertoire.
But, maybe all the mishaps are blessings in some way. I am fortunate enough to be able to go back to school and pursue yet another degree that I am passionate about: psychology. I have no idea what the future holds for me in this area, but I am optimistic.
I guess what I’ve learned from all of this (assuming there is a moral to this story) is that nothing about life is concrete. Sometimes you gotta just roll with the punches and turn the hardships into strengths. I have a lot to be thankful for: a great family, a great husband, a cool apartment in a great location, a great education, an adorable cat, good friends, and my health. And I’ve rediscovered my interest in the French language. C’est vrai!
It’s also important to remember that even though there may be things about your life that others consider unconventional, they may be just right for you. Like being vegan in a non-vegan world. Besides, living a “conventional” and stagnant life is boring.
So take some time to reflect on your amazingly unique existence and to look forward to a new year with many new adventures!